My skin boils, My heart pounds,
My knuckles tighten....I'm fully wound
The only good thing about my life so far this year is my partner, my family (minus my sister) and my friends. The rest of my life isn't going so well to put it lightly.
My work place have pushed me right back to floor with a big hard slam! I have worked so hard in that place and to know that I was actually getting somewhere, not where I see my future career or anything like that but somewhere that would prove to me alone that I could be seen with more respect and was actually good at something. My path in that place has been erased just like that.
DELETED
To make things even worse the person they believe is better than me has been working there for a year and 4 months less than me and has little experience in that area... feel let down completely and now I have to leave.
I am already making prior arrangements, i am doing a course now on what I truly want to do so I suppose in a way I have them to thank for something.
I am so tired and haven't had a period for about 4 months now maybe that is to do with my weight but I doubt it since I have been eating like a pig because I am all alone at home for a few weeks and I eat when I'm bored.
This is why I am on here and a key reason that I started blogging as it's a distraction.
My partner knows about my disorder and he has seen my thinspo book, which he wasn't best pleased about and if he hears me complain about my body or food he will try his best to make me take it back or make a nice compliment... It's sweet, but I don't think I will tell him that I am doing this still and that I have images already on my p.c of thinspo.
Astrid
xxx
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