Today I was meant to be meeting up with my father and sort out the issues that are tearing this family apart, But [what is this I hear] he sends me a text to say that he cant make this important family meeting, that him and his new wife set up themselves! I just don't understand, it makes me so angry. We had a 'chat' about whats bothering me and I like to think I told them as much as I felt comfortable in saying and we decided that we would have a day every fortnight which we would spend together and I am completely fine with that, its all I want [to be a normal family and see each other more often...he left my mother when i was little and hadn't seen me in around 10years] Yet once it had been arranged to do so, my new step mother decides I shouldn't see her again and that I should just meet up with my father alone...what the f**k! and then I'm back to where I just started.....he canceled on me for another time....i'm beginning to think whats the point.
If he cant be bothered to see me this one important time then will he ever. Its HIM who has the issue to be fair and he always breaks his promise and he cant understand whats the issue. Parents just mess you up even more...and you wonder why I have an issue with food and my appearance.
Anyway on with the rest of my day, which isn't any better as it is another day of self loathing and not a hint of bone to show. I will weigh myself today and put it on here so anyone following my blog can keep up to date. I have today only consumed 2 pieces of toast which I think I will try and cut out now my mornings are filled up...skipping food is my only treat. I am having my dinner now which i've made sure is not too high in calories..I will be consuming a jacket potato and salad.
My staple must haves are- green tea to boost metabolism [i.e lose weight quicker] and Water [negative calories!]
Get back to you with my new weight update.
Astrid x x x
If he cant be bothered to see me this one important time then will he ever. Its HIM who has the issue to be fair and he always breaks his promise and he cant understand whats the issue. Parents just mess you up even more...and you wonder why I have an issue with food and my appearance.
Anyway on with the rest of my day, which isn't any better as it is another day of self loathing and not a hint of bone to show. I will weigh myself today and put it on here so anyone following my blog can keep up to date. I have today only consumed 2 pieces of toast which I think I will try and cut out now my mornings are filled up...skipping food is my only treat. I am having my dinner now which i've made sure is not too high in calories..I will be consuming a jacket potato and salad.
My staple must haves are- green tea to boost metabolism [i.e lose weight quicker] and Water [negative calories!]
Get back to you with my new weight update.
Astrid x x x
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